The most hurtful thing in the world is...

When you cannot get what you are desiring so badly.

When you feel like trashing everything you have done in order to conquer that only thing that matters to you.

Why is it that I can't get it?

I do miss China!

How I wish that I was stil there!

I didn't make it.

Obviously, I don't have the ability to obtain my goal. Should I move on?