Yaaah, I can nod my head as a sign of recognition. But everything has its own exceptions right? While I'm not afraid of heights, rollercoasters (as if it is considered to be a very scary thing, but you get my point:P), taking risks etc. I definitely deal with some issues when it comes to relationships. ATM, I'm thinking about a lot of things, which I should've done differently in the past, so that I might've been happier at present. I'm especially bothered by this one incident, which could've resulted in something really good. But due to my passive 'relationship' nature, I basically ruined all the chances that were served on a silver plate. You know what I did to reject that plate? I laughed it off thinking that it was just not happening to me. See, when you think like that, nothing will become yours. The worst part was that I didn't even signal anything that might have hinted how I felt back then as a response to the signals (not even signals, he said it out clearly and loud in my presence!) he sent.
Instead, that chance went to someone else, and I think they are currently very happy together. As for me, I have been single for years (okay, maybe 2 years) because I can't find the same sparkle as I did in his presence. The thing is, I kindda believe in chemistry at first sight. Maybe, it's an odd analogy, but it's comparable to a shopping spree. It goes like this, when you walk into a store, you don't (me at least) need to go through the racks of clothes. All you need to do is to stand in the spot where you will get a clear overview, and immediately you will know that there is nothing that'll suit you.
Lately, I have been bothered by these thoughts and it made me realize that maybe I'm not completely over this whole incident? Even though, we didn't share anything close to a relationship, I still have a crush on him? Soo damn weird that I'll be thinking about this now siighs..
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